February 15, 2004 8:10 PM
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These days have been long, unlabored. Did a number of things and none of them hurt. I've been sleeping when I need. Listening to Suicide. Joy Division. Eating the most incredible omelet. I order the same thing every time I go there and it's always splendid. The waiters and cook recognize me. I fell when I walked up the stairs and laughed and laughed. Lately I've working to dismantle my figure of love. There's no point in misleading myself, or mourning a fictitious object. I'm not sure what I expect out of it, though I've never needed reasons to seek it, even in people where it won't and can't grow. I don't understand why my body needs reciprocity. I should be allowed to love down a one-way street. What are lovers but friends that share beds. And don't worry darling, I have two. What to do, what to do. |
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