These past few days have been really good. My schedule is "as I feel," something I haven't had the chance to do so fully in a while. I finally get to do what I want with real leisure and pleasure, rather than just telling myself, amidst a schedule, "this is leisurely." A fine but genuine distinction...

I'm getting a little better at figuring out what's happening at a given moment in my head. Only a little, a slow change, as any one concerning a frame of mind is. I'm trying to figure out what substantiates me -- not in essence, but in how I act and react to everything, observing how I create myself and frame others, both mentally and physically. It's hard to do, but I think with certain reoccurring anxieties, it's the only way for me to work through them.